parenting = worrying?

I am starting to realize that being a mother and worrying constantly about your child go hand-in-hand. Lately, I have been really concerned about how my diabetes is effecting the little guy. My A1cs have been good (around 6.0%) throughout the pregnancy, but I still see blood glucose measurements in the 200s at least twice per day (It makes me want to chuck my meter into the toilet!). It is sooo discouraging to be working so hard at achieving normoglycemia but failing time and again. I know that hyperglcemia in pregnancy can lead to macrosomia, shoulder distocia, brachial plexus injuries, and obesity later in life and all of the possible complications of my condition weigh heavily on my shoulders. We recently found out that Timmy's abdominal circumference measurement is in the 94th percentile...meaning that he might be putting on too much weight too fast due to the high glucose envirmonment he lives in (i.e. my body). I feel like I'm failing at being a good mother already and my son hasn't even been born yet! I hate that my body is toxic to my child. So frustrating. Anyways, with all of this, I am trying to turn to God and acknowledge that he has ultimate control over our baby's health and he can protect Timmy from my diabetes. If I know anything, it is that God can use imperfect things (like me!) to accomplish wonderful things. I'm choosing to have faith that he can use my imperfect body to create a healthy little baby. I'm also realizing that if I'm worrying about how my actions are effecting the baby now, I'll only continue to worry about this after he's born. I'm so glad I have God on my team to help me raise the little guy. There is no way Nich and I can successfully do this on our own.....We could definitely use prayer for encouragement and peace as we battle our fears!